More tortuous than all else is the human heart, beyond remedy; who can understand it? Jeremiah 17
I loved that line when I read it. It was one of those spot-on sayings that none of us need defining. We understand.
The lines following that one go on to say, “I, the Lord, alone probe the mind and test the heart, to reward everyone according to her ways, according to the merit of his deeds.”
I’m home today and sitting in my writing corner. The day is chilly although it’s sunny outside my window, but I’m not called to go outside and do anything. My job, today, is to center myself.
There’s a lot of flying off the edge of balance these days in all of us. And most of the time we have no idea how anything is going to work out in personal lives let along world lives: are Iran and the U.S. going to sign some kind of a nuclear agreement? is another American war beginning with Russia? … okay, let’s simplify: is it going to snow again tomorrow? That last simple question sets nerves on edge and contracts hearts in fear. Snow? Again?
See what I mean? We are easily tossed off the edge of balance.
That’s what the, “I, the Lord, alone probe the mind and test the heart…” means. Whatever we conceive “God” to be, the testing is in how we react to life. We can go gently and with balance or we can go digging in our heels. Which simply leads to bloody feet. One way or another, we have to go.
Trusting our journey means learning to trust in an uncertain world.
And there it is. That’s how we gain “reward” for our ways. We find a way to live comfortably in uncertainty and we find a way to keep our hearts at peace. My way, today, is staying home because I can. Your way is another way different from mine. It may mean closing the door to your office; leaving your desk and going to a quiet corner to do research; it may mean stopping long enough to feel a loving presence in your heart and expand it to those around you.
Whatever it is, may you find a way to peace and comfort today. Your mind and your heart will be happier for the effort.